Name It to Tame It (In the Moment)
The science test was handed back on a Tuesday morning, and Priya saw the mark before she even sat down properly. Fifty-eight. She had studied for three nights. She had checked her answers twice. Fifty-eight.
She dropped into her chair and stared at the paper. Around her, the classroom buzzed with the usual noise — chairs scraping, people whispering — but it all sounded far away. Something tightened in her chest. Her jaw clenched. She could feel heat rising up the back of her neck.
For a moment, she wanted to screw the test into a ball and shove it into her bag where she would never have to look at it again.
Then something shifted.
Priya had been practising something her school counsellor called ‘noticing’. Instead of just reacting, she paused and tried to name what was happening inside her body. Tight chest. Clenched jaw. Heat at the back of her neck. Her counsellor had said the body always gives signals — the trick is to catch them before they run the show.
She asked herself quietly: What is this feeling?
Not just ‘bad’. Not just ‘stressed’. She sat with it for a few seconds.
Disappointed. That was the word. She was deeply, genuinely disappointed — not with herself, but with the gap between how hard she had tried and what the number said. There was something else too, something softer underneath: embarrassment. She did not want anyone to ask her score.
Naming both feelings did not make them disappear. But something loosened slightly, the way a tight lid eases after you press down and turn. She was not a storm anymore. She was a person having a hard moment.
Priya folded the test carefully and placed it in the front pocket of her folder. She would look at it properly later — not to wallow in it, but to understand it. She decided she would circle every question she had got wrong and figure out why. Were there gaps in what she knew? Had she misread anything? That was something she could actually do.
She took one slow breath and picked up her pencil.
Her friend Jess leaned across from the next desk. ‘You okay?’
‘Yeah,’ Priya said. ‘Just thinking.’
It was true. She was not pretending to be fine. She was choosing to stay steady until she could deal with the situation properly — on her own terms, in her own time.
By lunchtime, the tight feeling in her chest had eased. It had not gone because the mark had changed. It had eased because Priya had stopped fighting what she felt and started doing something small and purposeful with it instead.
Check your vocabulary knowledge
- clenched v.
- squeezed or held tightly together due to strong feeling
- counsellor n.
- a trained adult who helps people understand and manage their feelings
- wallow v.
- to stay stuck in a difficult feeling without trying to move forward
- purposeful adj.
- done with a clear intention or goal in mind
- embarrassment n.
- an uncomfortable feeling caused by worry about what others think